Singing

Glasses really are the best at hiding bloodshot eyes. 

And I really shouldn't even be crying because it's so stupid. 

I guess it's just my whole life I've told myself that I wasn't a good singer and I wasn't worthy to do any sort of worship ministry. Then this semester, so many people spoke life into me that I was good enough and was beautiful and talented and I should do it. 

Then I audition for worship team at church and surprise surprise my voice is not good enough nor am I the right stereotype to do it. 

I mean I should've known it. And really, I guess I wasn't doing it for the right reasons anyways. I'm dealing with too much right now to truly glorify God in leading others also. 

Oh well. God is calling me to something else I suppose. 

Cest la vie. 

<3jen