I have this problem with letting peoples’ opinions control me.. How I look, where I go, what I do, who i’m with… I take it all into too much consideration.

I mean, yes, thinking about the image you are portraying to the world is not a bad thing to do… but letting a cruel word get you down isn’t right.

It’s easy to complain that it is those peoples’ fault that you are depressed, but in reality, that’s not true. It’s a) Satan at work, and it’s b) my own fault.

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? … But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” (Matthew 6:25-27, 33-34)

What others say shouldn’t matter, it’s God’s opinion that does.

<3jen

no complaining

“Do all things without complaining or arguing.” (phil 2:14)

great. now i can’t even complaining about the little mundane things in my life? (whoops, there i go again.)

the more i’ve been thinking about this verse, the more convicted i have been about all the things i complain about.

“i’m tired.”
“i’m hungry.”
“that hurts!”

they' are all complaints, and i say them all the time.

needless to say, i will be working on not complaining… cause that is something i LOVE to do.. complain.

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in other news, i’m going thursday to try out for a new ballet class. YAY! :) i’m nervous, but I SHALLL NOT COMPLAIN.

<3jen

sunrise

This song really hit home with me today.. listen to it.
<3jen

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If I had the chance
To go back again
Take a different road, bear a lighter load
Tell an easy story

I would walk away
With my yesterdays
And I would not trade what is broken for beauty only

Every valley
Every bitter chill
Made me ready to climb back up the hill
And find that . . .

You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You're my horizon
You're the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You

That after the long night, You are sunrise
There's a moment when
Faith caves in

There's a time when every soul is certain God is gone
But every shadow is evidence of sun
And every tomorrow holds out hope for us
For every one of us

You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You're my horizon
You're the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You
That after the long night, You are sunrise

You alone will shine
You alone can resurrect this heart of mine
You are sunrise
You are blue skies

How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?
You're my horizon
You're the light of a new dawn
So thank You, thank You
That after the long night, You are sunrise

Resolutions Recap

I give myself a four out of ten for accomplishing my resolutions..

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Share my feelings.
This blog has helped. maybe I haven’t talked to a whole bunch of people (which is probably a smart move), but i have shared about how i’m really feeling, etc etc.

energize yourself for something worthwhile.
I hope i’ve been doing this. like i’ve mentioned a bajillion times, i’m switching dance studios in the fall. so i’ve been working my rear end off to improve..

Read through the Bible in a year.
I’ve stopped. it was too much. i felt as if i was inhaling the Bible, not letting it marinate. i need to start a new study series soon, though… (any suggestions??)

forgive.
FAILURE. *sigh* it’s hard to forgive something that’s been engrained in your heart for several months or even years..

Teach a Bible class.
I did this. yay me. :)

pray.
another failure, but hey. i’ve still got the rest of this day, this week, this year, my LIFE to get this one where it is supposed to be..

Persevere on what is worthwhile.
i guess i can’t really find this one out until it’s been a while. or maybe it’s possible to persevere on a daily basis too..

attitude.
i got all A’s this semester. but i must admit that i really haven’t had the best attitude about other things.. i need to be more respectful, even to those that annoy me. :-/

Improve a life.
I’m going to El Salvador this summer for a mission trip. does this count?

exercise.
my poor dog. i don’t exercise with her EVER. i can’t figure out how i am supposed to find time in my schedule to do that.. or more like, make time. :-/

LIVE.
i’m still here, which says a lot. <3

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i’m driving myself to counseling today... one more step of freedom. YAY!

<3jen