I'm afraid of people. (and I realized this last night)
It's dumb really. I generalize the few times that I've been hurt to mean that everyone will leave when they realize the true me. And that's terrifying.
Sure, I have had a somewhat of a rough patch in my past, but I'm alive and healed today! So why do I still fear that if someone finds out what I struggle with, then they'll leave me by the wayside?
Why am I afraid of people and their abilities to hurt me?
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At the LIFE retreat a couple months ago, someone spoke over me that if God intended a friendship to be formed, he will see it through until completion.
And something about that ministered to me.
I need to lose the fear of people. Lose the fear of not having someone physically with me for me to love. And lose the fear of loss in general.
Cause all I could ever need in a relationship is right here. with me. all the time!
Not only do I need to trust in God's capability of keeping me with whom I need to be, but I need to rely solely on him. May he help me to be ever dependent upon him, and not the relationships that will fail me.
<3jen
