"It's not about how you start; all that matters is how you finish."
I was sitting in yet another class, on yet another Monday, without any motivation for the rest of this semester. I was content with mainly B's this semester and not having to work hard these last few weeks... but then Dr. Powell dropped this nugget and it struck a chord with me.
So many of the weeks of this semester I completely checked out. I was physically in class, taking notes, being tested... but in reality, I was dead inside. Some days I had no emotion, others just no desire to live or really even do anything.
But yet, there was grace abounding all the more.
I struggled. I pulled people down. I didn't breathe life into people. I failed quizzes and bombed tests. I complained constantly. I hurt myself and everyone around me.
"God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us." (Acts 17:27)
Somehow I've survived. Well, almost. I still have four weeks left of this semester and am void of any motivation. But I'm fighting back.
I'm not gonna write this semester off as the worst one of my life... sure, it's been one of the hardest. But looking back? It's had so many good blessings in the midst of all of the crap.
God's been working. Always working.
I'm not going to be satisfied with a mediocre finish. I'm not gonna beat myself up for all the mistakes I made this semester. I'm taking a new perspective to finish it out.
It's not about reflecting on our debt -- all that God has to forgive us for. All our struggles and hurts. But it's about reflecting on how much we've been forgiven. How gladly He paid our debt. How much He loves us despite it all.
Stay strong. Finish well.
<3jen
