The last goodbyes

I'm sitting here listening to the butter bean band playing some sad-sounding song and it makes this moment even sadder...

The last goodbyes.

I said goodbye to my high school best friends yesterday and tomorrow is my best friend from my old church and Thursday night is my moms side of the family... But tonight is definitely one of the saddest.

Now I have been so excited all of this past week and am still, but just something about this night has made me realize that I never know the next time I'm going to see everyone I love... Breaks my heart to think that I have the chance to never see them again.

I needn't waste my time.

<3jen

Focus on the good.

I'm just sitting here at this girls retreat reflecting on 1 Corinthians 13... A chapter I've read a hundred thousand times, but yet somehow it still doesn't sink in.

("so no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do... I'm bankrupt without love.")

I got a parallel NIV/message bible for my graduation, so as I've been studying the Bible since then, Ive been looking at the message to kinda understand it better... Or at least get a fresh look on things.

("love never dies. It cares more for others than self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut.....it puts up with anything. Trusts God always. Always looks for the best.")

That last phrase there is a stinker. I've been thinking about that lately. You know, always assuming the worst of people, judging before I get to know them... It's not love. And I yearn to change my attitude towards the world.

As i said in my little advice blurb to my fellow students at school "love everybody." the world could care less about how much you know, until they can know how much you care.

<3jen