Sometimes...

I just wanna grab some people by the shoulders and shake them until they realize the life they're throwing away. Breaks my heart.

<3jen

Happy post... Finally(;

Just for the record, college isn't all horribleness. ;P I am always posting stuff when things go wrong, so here's some marvelous things that have happened:

*ive made some amazing friends already. I have constant snapchat conversations with Savannah, hanging out all the time with a few other education majors, Erin and Kelsey. And Kenita goes to the same church as me and have spent a lot I time with her. And mrs. Amy? She is an angel. My mom met her through her blog, but she has taken me under her wings and is alway tweeting me, meeting me for meals, saving me seats at church, and just being amazing.

*despite my c on my last math test, I've actually have not really struggled with any of my classes. Making too grades in geology, 100s in my easy classes, and high bs in the rest. :)

*my church has to be the best thing that has happened to me. Not only is each service possibly the most moving thing I've been to, but it has totally shaped my opinion of Christians... God is definitely working through my past struggles with ideologies of Christians being hypocrites. And my small group is always so encouraging...

*while we've had several tension-filled moments, my relationship with my sister has really been great. She's. even started coming to Wednesday night church with me... Crazy amazing. And my relationship with my parents is amazing. I've called them crying a couple times, but they never fail to cheer me up...
Seriously, I love my life.

<3jen

Fears

Funny how one bad test grade can lead to so many fears being uncovered... What if I'm really only getting good grades because of curving? What if I don't get accepted to my college? What if I don't get a job one day? What if I don't get married and am a spinster all of my life?
AUGH. The questions just beat me to death.
The little voice in my head keeps telling me that I'm incompetent to do anything, but I keep trying to tell myself that God is what makes me able to do anything.
It's so hard.

<3jen

So when I should be studying for my huge midterm, I'm lying here on my bed sobbing. Why? Because sometimes you've been strong for too long and need a good cry...

<3jen