“If you’re gonna get better, you’ve gotta look at where you are and how you change it.”
my finance teacher was getting off on a tangent about being in debt.. but i found that this applied to life in general.
“Your triggers are why you keep falling backwards into the same things you’ve been doing.”
people ask me what my triggers are, and i can never think of a “goodish” answer. but then it hit me today.
imperfection.
that’s my trigger. that’s why i hated myself. that’s why i push myself too hard. that’s why i got in this whole mess in the first place. i wanted to be perfect. and i wasn’t. so i beat myself up for it.
how do i conquer this, though?
grace.
i don’t accept grace like i should. i don’t deserve grace. but God gives it to me anyways. I shouldn’t be like the man who was given grace and in turn didn’t give it away. that’s me. i get grace from God, but i don’t give it back to myself.
kinda tough to chew on.
<3jen
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