many mini trials

i need to rant a bit, so excuse me for a moment. my judgment has momentarily lapsed.

my internet is currently hating me. and because of this, my auburn online application is really confusing and isn’t working correctly. *growl* one my best friends who convinced me last year to keep living, suddenly treats me like crap. also, i started school back this week, so thus, my mother and I have been in horrific moods.

AND my head hurts.

*sigh*

okay, i’m done. :P

I’m starting a new devotional book titled “A Call to Die.” It’s about dying to yourself and living for Christ… and it’s really challenging me so far. i’ve done this study before, but i figured i would do it again. i need something to push me back to living for Christ.

Sure, the mission trip was AMAZING to help with that, but it kind of was uncomfortable. is all that people are called by God to do is to serve Him in foreign countries? cause, i kinda like america, thank you very much. but i’ll admit, it would be really nice to be able to hear God just say “go and do this with your life.”

everyone says that your senior year is the best year ever. but honestly, it’s kinda stressful too… I mean, i’ve still gotta get my ACT score up so I won’t be broke the rest of my life trying to pay off college… and speaking of college, I have NO idea what i want to do… everything that I would like to do “doesn’t pay well enough”, according to everyone i talk to… is money all that matters and all there is to getting a college degree and finding a job? meh. to the world it apparently is… :P

anywhoo, prayers for all of my loveliness would be greatly appreciated.

 

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now, don’t get me wrong, my life hasn’t been ALL stinkiness lately. my sister got married a few days ago, :D i got placed in the top level at the dance studio i’m switching too, :) the Harry Potter books are wonderful, :P and of course, I still have many, many wonderful friends to make up for the one who hasn’t been so wonderful lately. (but hey. who says friendship is a one way thing? maybe the crappiness is partially my fault for letting her treat me like that and not being a true friend about it? but ANYWAYS. ha, that’s besides the point.)
God is still good, despite my many mini trials as a teenager. and He is always W.I.T.H. me.*

<3jen

 

 

* a long while back I did a mini-retreat for the girls in my youth  group about how God is always WITH us… wherever, infinitely, tenderly, healing… i still need to hear it again every once in a while.