Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Expectations

I dont want to go to the church of Christ student center at auburn. And if I dont then that will be the end of the world...

I'm tired of being labeled church of Christ. Im not!! I'm tired of being labeled a good little perfect church girl... I just want to be me! The girl who loves God and loves people...

Why must we all be forced to do what everyone else thinks we should do? Why must we feel guilty if we don't do what's been done in your family for two generations? I want to make friends and not have to pretend to be best friends with people I used to go to church with and who totally ignored me but now think we should be best friends... So far nobody understands.

My roommate is the perfect church girl and is so excited about the ACSC. I'm just afraid she wont understand my imperfectness. I mean, I know she will, but this mood I'm in is not offering any encouragement...

To quote my new favorite song on the radio "everybody's got a dark side, do you love me, do you love mine?"

I'm ready to break free of expectations, but college seems like its going to bring them even tighter...

<3jen

1 comment:

  1. It's going to be a whole different kind of expectations. You'll get some freedom, room to stretch your legs and discover. Don't be afraid to mess up! Just find a place that allows you to live to your fullest potential. You'll do great. :)

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