landslide

well, i’ve been afraid of changing, cause i built my life around you..

around the depressed, suicidal, jenna. my whole life revolved around how i was feeling. is that so wrong? some might say no, but in order to break this loop of depression i’m gonna have to break those thoughts..

(absolutely LOVE this song.. i’ve listened to it about 300 times this past week. <3)

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counseling on Thursdays was a “big breakthrough” as my parents might call it. i was allowed to get all my scissors, knives, and razors back.. aka, i’m getting better, according to my counselor.
a couple weeks ago she changed my diagnosis to just depressed.. not suicidal. i think it made my parents week. :)
but i have definitely enjoyed having my scissors back. for crafting purposes.. it’s hard to wrap presents without scissors.. ;)

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so. it’s a whole new year. i’m kinda anxious to see what this year’s gonna bring. last year was terrible, so hopefully this year will be a more upbeat year..

as this year moves on,  i have three prayer requests for myself in this upcoming year.

*that i will have the desire to change. but most importantly, to desire God.

*that i will have the strength to persevere in the change. in the hard times, in the easy time. to not let up the fight.

*that i will accept grace. God’s grace. that i will realize that it’s not the end of the world if i’m not perfect.. and that His grace covers me.

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May your 2011 be as fantabulous as you can make it. im praying for you.

<3jen