introducing: the bad mood monster

this is a little friend of mine.. we were friends for a long time. but i guess now we’re “enemies.”

he is the feeling of despair and hopelessness. the feeling of never wanting to get better. the feeling that improving is pointless and that nothing you ever do will be good enough.

blegh.

im trying to fight him really hard. but at the moment, he’s winning.

another name for the “bad mood monster” is satan. its not such a cute and cuddly name. kinda scary to think that i’m in Satan’s control..

but i’m not.. right?

*sigh*

but i can’t be rescued from Satan if i’m working with him..

its a lot to think about. to pray about.

but I will beat the “bad mood monster”.. with Jesus’ help.

Psalm 37:4
Take delight in the LORD,
   and he will give you the desires of your heart.

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thanks you guys for all the sweet notes and emails and prayers.. i love y’all very much.

<3jen