You were there…

I ask where is God in all of this? All I can see is a girl who has screwed up so bad. She’s brought down those who she loves so much.. how can God be there?
As the tears are streaming down my face for the first time in years, it’s almost cleansing. It’s okay to cry, i keep telling myself. this is too hard for one girl to bear alone..
i know this will all turn out, but right now, in this moment, Satan is fighting hard. He wants me so badly.. he wants me bad.
But God, in all His sovereignty has it all planned. You are the strength when we have none.. You were, you are, and always will be. I am not alone.